Oh how long it has been, and oh how much has happened. I have been here for about four months, except it feels like four years...but to be honest, I would not have it any other way. When I first started my fundamentals class I was extremely nervous, and while I still find myself getting worked up and anxious for class I am much more comfortable than when I first started. In fundamentals we went from making simple soups to plated dishes; my first plating was not the best but as we worked more, I got more confident in my skills and attempted to have a 'sense of urgency'-- this is one of the schools favorite sayings. Here is a picture of one of my final dishes that I made in that class, it is:
pan-seared rainbow trout, roasted asparagus, glazed golden beats and a roasted stuffed tomato
Fundamentals class got progressively more difficult, but the more obstacles I was faced with, the more I seemed to fall in love. Some days I faltered and forgot to season or overcooked my veg, but my Chef always told me I was progressing and even though I hardly ever admit that is true, I did see myself progressing and still do everyday. This past month has been the prime time to apply for Internships. While I thought I wanted to go to California, and still have that open as an option, my advisor suggested looking into an opportunity in Rome. Originally, I ruled out applying for any internships abroad because I was afraid my Italian wouldn't be strong enough to keep up in the fast paced kitchens, but at this site it is not required that you speak fluently! Once I decided to apply, I asked my fundamentals chef for a letter of recommendation and the letter he wrote was one of my proudest moments yet. It was after receiving his letter that I knew I had made the right decision in coming to this school, and that I was definitely becoming a prospectively great chef. I am still awaiting an answer from the Internship site and check my email just about every breath I take because I am so eager and excited and nervous!
Recently, I did something with my two closest friends here that has made me more proud of myself than I have ever been...we 'catered' my dads 50th birthday party! The whole thing was a surprise and we had been working on the menu for weeks. Nervous and excited at the same time, the entire experience was amazing; and I really think we shocked people with the dishes we served. Here are a few:
This is a cubed heirloom tomato and basil terrine with a taleggio grilled cheese
This is a pickled ginger and avocado tuna tartar with crispy wonton chips
This is a layered avocado mousse, flaked crab, mango salsa and lime cilantro sour cream
Lastly, a grilled lollipop lamb chop with mint basil tzatziki
And here we are toasting to our success!
I thought I was going to be more focused on peoples reactions when they actually tasted the food, but seeing how proud my family and friends were--especially my father--was a thousand times more gratifying than their praise for the tastes and finesse of the menu items. I really have come to find that the mistakes, successes, learning and discovering are all important but the most important thing is to be satisfied with yourself and satisfying others. On Monday, we had Thomas Keller Day; Chef Keller and many other renowned chefs and purveyors came to school to give us a glimpse of our future and inspire us to keep up with our work. While the entire day was very enlightening, one part stuck out most and was engraved into my mind; after doing a mock service at the French Laundry, Chef Keller ended the day with this quote:
There were times when I made mistakes in class, but my chef would recognize other successes and tell me I should still be proud of myself, and while I still did beat myself up for a short time, I would eventually realize that I should be proud of myself no matter what. I am doing so much more than I have ever done, and working harder than I ever have at the same time. While I am not the best yet, I am confident that one day I will exceed even my own expectations and truly be proud of myself and stay proud of myself. I am in the business of making people happy, through my food...and while I never really put myself on the forefront of that, I am now not only dedicated to making other people happy, but making myself happy.
I am so excited for my future. I am so ready to make moves and do big things. Every bit of this is because of my family and their insane support. Hearing my grandmothers voice on the phone and seeing her in person and knowing that she is happy with me is more than I can ask for. Having my uncle tell me how good I did catering my dads party after he went through this same curriculum as I did was so satisfying. And having my father say that he finally sees a passion in my life and that he knows this has all been worth it is the most insanely gratifying comment, because I too finally feel a passion burning inside of me.
I would not want to be doing anything else, this is my life now and I would not have it any other way.
(and yes, that is me with a giant subprimal of beef)



















